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I totally totally totally miss doing black and white photography!
Sometimes we, as human beings have a tendency to do things that make us feel liberated on a personal level.
Like cleaning up the mail box, deleting names from the phone that you do not dial anymore, erasing sms’s which you have saved since forever for keepsake, blocking and deleting people from the msn list and cleaning your cupboard and throwing out old birthday, valentine and new years cards.
Along with all this, I did someting else today which i wasnt too sure would be too liberating or not…..
I took of my wedding ring for a day, as biazarre as it may sound. But the feeling was phenomenal. Everytime I would look at my hands, I would have this total feeling of freedom which if nothing else made me free and independent inside.
No, i am not some woman who is unhappily married. Neither am I someone who married because she had to get married….but somehow taking of the ring every once a while is a good feeling. Maybe you all out there might not agree…but hey, this is space for my thoughts and feeling!
“Rabbit’s clever,” said pooh thoughtfully.
“Yes”, said Piglet. “Rabbits clever”.
“And he has a brain”.
“yes”, said Piglet, “Rabbit has a brain”.
There was a long silence.
“I suppose”, said Pooh, “thats why he never understands anything”.
In the times when there is not enough saved up to buy that particular watch or cologne for hubby….and you are running short of time and ideas….creativity hits you with a bang and you end up designing a tshirt that the hubby falls in love with and is a hit all around…..thank god for ideas and friends full of ideas!
Seeing a good design can be orgasmic….
I had dreamt of being the kind of pregnant lady who glows….who has spotless skin and luscious hair….who moves with grace….who only puts on weight at the bump….who dosent have a trace of extra weight here or there….and manages to fit into her shoes and rings till the last moment…..
Right now, I am exactly the opposite of all of that and no, the last moment is not even close by….
I dont like men who design their persona according to how their wife / girl friend wants it….
I HATE men who are lazy……
I am scared about the fact that my BP is high….
F is I’s sister in law….M, an old relationshiper (if thats a word) got married to B (a junior from college)…world just keeps on getting smaller every day….
My hormones go crazy at times…..and i guess rightly so….
I wish I could say outloud whatever thoughts keep on stirring up in my mind….
I have realized I am the most confused person I know….in decisions that dont require confusion at all!
Nothing like starting the mornings with hot tea in a new mug that you love!
